Never look back at my trace

I'm getting shredded into little tissue pieces
Blood's rushing through my hollow head
And in my soul the light of fire ceases
And time is wearing off its tiny gentle thread

My muffled voice gave up on helpless screaming
It tried so hard, but wouldn't anymore
The sky has destined me for lifelong painful dreaming
I guess, some day, I lost in Heaven's draw

And I don't want someone to be right by me
And I don't want someone to shed those doleful tears
I looked too long for life, I couldn't ever find it
My hopes were buried under shroud of years

What was I looking for? I knew, God would elude us
I, over time, accepted it as such...
I am so sorry, I don't want to be your Judas
For that, my love, I love you way too much...

And with the pain that pierces through my body
With glazing eyes and spirit in disgrace
I'll leave this place, despite of all your loving
And you, please, never look back at my trace...