Colonel

there were talks many talks
and then there were actions
— what is this noise about 
— nothing you could change colonel why
i really do not know why i ever started to shout
i only wanted to check whether i was really blind
as a matter of fact i was
but it was not this what was troubling me
— nothing you could fix colonel
stupid boy i already knew that of course
yet i was ready to pull the trigger
my pulse was in my throat which made it slightly difficult to swallow
i even laughed it sounded creepy i admit
you know this kind of laughter one describes as hollow
and then there was a fight
i didn’t see the blood but i imagine there was enough
and even darkness seemed to pale a bit
— nothing you could tell me colonel
but i wasn’t even talking to him the bastard
i could have shot him of course i didn’t
but i could and that’s what counts right
so why for heaven’s sake would i feel guilt-ridden
yes i was ready to pull the trigger and send the whole world to hell
i even could envision how they’d go there in corps
but then there was peace
and calmness
and we talked no more

(28.09.2008)