A message from nowhere

Hanging on a shade of wind
Can you tell if you remember
When for the first time it has seemed,
That you wouldn`t live forever?

I`ve known about sex at four,
With love acquainted at seven,
What is this fear, despair for?
I knew death when came from `heaven`.

Maybe I`ve just lost my way,
I guess my mission was a fake,
I`m ment to leave it anyway
I know I`ve come here by mistake.

I had to die just after birth,
Why somebody has saved me?!
Since then my only wish`s the first –
I strive for dying daily.

When I have learnt how here to speak
I`ve said `I want to die!`, `Let`s die!`
I`ve put myself in terms of risk,
But everytime survived.

I had to die just after birth,
But lived and laughed, and riched success,
Still under pressure of my curse:
No need for fame, love and sex.

Unfortunately I know too much
And see to carry on my weird,
My thoughts are free, they`re not in touch
With rules, put into our brains.

My `I` and my vision of life
Are not limited with frames
Of this little vulnerable lie,
Sealing from the birth all brains.

I don`t believe your words,
I don`t believe my eyes,
Let emptiness explose ,
While my body dies!

And I am sure, that the definition
Of the word `Truth` is false,
On what is based your recognition
Of the terms of Universe?!!

But if you try to go beyond
The world of Universe
You may see all we`ve been taught
Is ment to be completely false.

So I believe my own rules
To go through worlds and mine to choose,
I know I`ll leave for my own truth,
To stay here longer has no use!