My dreams before nothing happens

Dreams… What can be more pleasant?.. It doesn`t take your free time – you can dream everywhere: in train, while making your way to your institute or a place of your work; at home, while sitting in the comfortable, cozy armchair, covered with a soft plaid; in the street during your walk; or even in bed at night while sleeping…
Everyone has his own dream… That boy, for example, dreams to visit a concert of Kurt Kobein… He knows, that his dream will never be realized, but it doesn`t even matter. He just dreams…
Sometimes we don`t need our dreams to come true. Dream is not an aim of our life… You can want it with all your heart, but it doesn`t mean that if your dream comes true – you`ll become happy. It doesn`t mean that you should tempt your fate for it… Just dream – it is so wonderful!
During 6 years I`ve been dreaming of parachuting. A lot of people used to promise that they would help me with it. And what? No one remembers about it now. And I wouldn`t remind them, as I consider it to be my own dream – no one in the whole world is obliged to do me this favor.
At times, when my life becomes dull and monotonous, I dream of something unusual. But when at last it happens, on the contrary, I dream of a quiet in my life.
For a change sometimes I dream of love. In spite of the fact that I often have some kind of relations – I can`t say that I`m really happy because of them. I`m a romantic girl – so I want a real love… Such love, when there is not even a thought of someone else… When one person means more than anything in the world for you… When you are ready to do everything for him. And when he is even ready to turn the tables.
Oh, my best dream is to change my character! I consider it to be so awful, as I always make my bed! And then, when the chips are down, I wait for something to change. It`s very difficult for me to be master of my own life… I don`t believe in fate, and I know, that I can make my life as I want it to be. But sometimes I become very lazy and prefer to let everything develop as it might.
I dream… I always dream, but nothing changes… And, frankly speaking, I don`t really know, whether I`d really like it to change…