They say, I should live further...

As soon as I became alone, they began coming every day. «You have the whole life in front of you», «You`ll soon find your happiness». Banal words of my best friends. Wonderful people, they don`t want to realize that I don`t want to be alone. I don`t want to live without her. I don`t want to leave my house, put on a ready smile and say : «Everything is o`k!» My life stopped and I don`t have any aim to live. If only people could die as soon as they realize that there wasn`t any reason for them to continue living… It would be much better that sitting at home and only thinking about her., as I had nobody to pour my heart to..
But they, staying at my house at nights, think that they can distract me from thinking… Naпve people.. Wonderful people, whom I left as soon as she appeared in my useless life..
I`ve lost part of my soul.. As if I have just woken up from anesthesia without arms and legs.. And doctors say: «You needn`t worry! It`s o`k! If we amputated your head – it would be bad.. But now it`s ok! Tolerably!»
Tolerably – that is the word. When I tried to explain that my pain is such intolerable that it`s silly to combine with life – my friends only smiled and said, that I would overcome all the difficulties, that I needed only time. But a person can`t live during so many years, that I needed for my pain to calm.
She was the only person – who was on the same wave length with me. I even didn`t want such a happiness as to own her.. Our first acquaintance made my life meaningful.
I loved her as God, I loved her more than God. And it wasn’t a gallery play. She was pink a perfection.
But they say, I should live further. But there isn`t any «further». There is only a silly coincidence…