Tombstone on my heart

It's like there's tombstone on my heart
Can't live my life, can't take new start
I can't go on without you near
All there is left is dread and fear,
And pain, and sadness, disbelief...
And love,and loneliness, and grief,
That eats my soul from inside-out,
That tortures me and makes me shout,
That hunts my nightmares and day-dreaming,
That leaves me restless,scared and screaming...
I need you near, need you back...
Your love,your warmth-the things I lack.
I want to give you so much more,
Want you to come right through this door
And smile at me, and wave your hand-
It's nice in here, don't want to land,
With you,so gorgeous,on this cloud...
But then this screaming gets too loud,
And I go smashing back at Earth,
I'm crying rocking back and forth...
I feel like World is coming to an end:
No love, no family, no friend...
Like everything to this had led:
I'm lost, I'm empty, like I'M dead.