Big Stupid Mistake

Verse#1:
We went to play for school and I met him when I was fifteen
It was my first man older than me so I was glad that man looked at me
Who knew and I didn’t know what will be when I’ll be seventeen
He was so funny, gentle, good, awesome and kind to me
I was a girl, he was a man; I was his acquainted and nothing at all
We talked about everything I could, it was just good evenings with beer
He knew me like no one, and I knew him a little bit; he knew every fall
But sometimes it was embarrassed to tell him something, it was my fear
He always laughed at me cause I was too young, it always hurt me
But I forgot it; cause I can’t help loving the way he flirted
No one could but he remembered everything I ever told him
I was shamed, surprised and happy when he wanted to hold me
He tried unconsciously to teach me how to be with man
It was indisputably good experience for me, God damn
I let him go away from my life, I made it by myself
I wanted him to stay for a while, he knew it well
But I let myself made a big stupid mistake
But now he thinks there’s nothing in me to take
No one can do it like me; I fucked up everything what I tried to build
And now I have nothing, and now I have no influence to wield
I repaid for his kindness, he made me love him, and I didn’t
I repaid with stupidity, I got a little experience, and I eat it
Now he has no interest of me, I’m empty place for him
I’m desperate, GOD DAMN IT, I ate it, and now I hate it

Chorus:
I was little stupid girl, I was seventeen
I didn’t realize what my mistake will mean
It meant that everything between us is over
It took me from the Heaven to the ground, very lower

Verse#2:
It was severe Saturday; it was our pretty last day together
Last day in usual position for nothing between us
It meant he’ll never call me ever, I’ll never see him ever
It meant that in his veins ran lust, and a thought fuck till we bust
I drank my lovely Martini with red cherry juice; he was confused,
I drank all he had, but it’s usual to me that’s why I didn’t muse
Than we went out to the shop and got cigarettes and more beer
He bought one bottle almost US pint to me and two to himself
When I drank that one US pint, I was drunk and I started to gear
Myself up for having sex with him, he did it too with myself
It could’ve been so warm, first-rate, soft and kind
If I didn’t lose because of drunkenness my fucking mind
We slowly went to the bedroom; good music was playing
He quickly undressed me, I was lying completely naked
We were kissing so sweet and smooth and I was saying
I was afraid, I worried, I was drunk, and I wasn’t faked
I shouldn’t say it but I said that I wanted to upset him
I said that I had periods, and fucking tampon’s in
He immediately got off me like I’m done
He lay near me for two minutes and left
I was strictly shamed, upset and angry to death
I thought that that night would give me fun
He took away the condoms and slept in another room
I waked up soon because of feeling I’m fucking fool
Then he told me that I had to go, I asked why
I annoyed him, he said “without questions why”
He was angry and I was ornery, cause he talked me back
What should I do? I wanted to strike back
But then I realize that I’ve done enough to him
I shut the fuck up my mouth, and said goodbye to him
And then I understood that it was my fault, I was mean
I hope one day I’ll wake up and this is all will be a dream
I was desperate; I smoked a lot of cigarettes that day
Then he told me that he’d better hit me and throw me away
I tried to change something but it was too late to alter something in my fate cause

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