Old wounds - Maik Naumenko

I was used to everything going my way,
But I had bet on a horse, and it got stuck in the gate
And so suicidal man picks up the pen and writes…
And sound of pen on a paper, like a dying moan
My eunuch was a hero, but he is too gone.
And I cry, but you don’t hear my cries, and nobody hears.

I get up and I look at the glorious night
With that move I will challenge the world to a fight,
I demolish my bridges but the thing I don’t get is who build them.
And the final bus had left long ago,
And for taxi, I know, I don’t have any dough.
I saw this all in a movie one time long time ago, yet it still seems upsetting.

But don’t be scared if at once
You will hear strange and eerie sounds
It’s alright
It just seems
That my wounds have reopened…

And I write my poems all through the night
Even though I know I don’t have any right
Why should I meet dawn?
The dawn will not come – noone cares.
But thank goodness I still have a bottle of wine
But how strange that the walls quickly start to collide
And I in between them, but I know it’s my fault
Plus I’ve got a cold.

But don’t be scared if at once
You will hear strange and eerie sounds
It’s alright
It just seems
That my wounds have reopened…

And even the silence hangs on like a rock
And hands for some reason don’t move on a clock
And smoke in my eyes, and chain on my hands, and nothing to eat.
But everything turns out, the way that it should
Exactly the way that I knew that it would.
And still oh how I wish you were here
How I wish you were here
How I wish you were here…

But tomorrow, they told me, it’s going to rain
And it seems all the cigarettes were smoked in vain
It seems every question’s engraves in my brain, and no answer exists.
But am I even sure that I need to know?
I am just a part of invisible world.
My latest poem – just maddening words,
And my last song has been sung by the birds,
That’s the way and it will be for many-many years
And there’s no other way.

But don’t be scared if at once
You will hear strange and eerie sounds
It’s alright
It just seems
That my wounds have reopened…