I swear that was a joke

                I swear that was a joke.

Do I remember everything ? 
When I was young and so obdurate
There was no time to feel and to console
There was no place to make me pure it

So I am standing laughing back
And you were startled by my falsehood
Your hair turned white, mine are still black
You were enraged, I burned your fury

I swear that was a joke!

My overdue remorse is heared
But it`s a quastion, what is it for ?
I didn`t care when you were hurt
Now I am laughing and I can`t stop

Somebody, treat me for this load !
Please, listen to the desperate request !
My  heels just don`t feel the road
I was a cause of all your best

I swear that was a joke !

Another damage ? Read of it !
My words were cold and sharp like spears
You asked me «why?» I made my bid
I spat that day at all your tears

You made me scoffer by your touch
I rushed away and still i`m homeless
I shot your heart – the hole was large:
«I don`t want. I don`t need. I don`t love.»

I swear that was a joke !