Can I be stronger?

I don't know where I go and I am wet through
Heart is crying, it doesn’t tell me what I have to do
But I'm looking for nobody - nothing waits for me
And I'm leaving friends, my house to become all free

Yes, I dream to be alone, I'm becoming white
But I need to be like stone. I begin my night
I'm afraid to say aloud that I am too weak
I'm afraid to stay without courage when I speak

She forgot me. They’ll forget me. But I can’t forget
She has got her independence and I want to get
They begun too dismal story and new wars for me
They reload worlds with coolness, worlds without sea

I am walking near feelings, you are walking, too
No matter. I don't care who is next to you…
When it thunders, when it snows, I don’t hide myself
No cloak, no umbrella on my own shelf…

My life pictures on the ceiling store my thoughts for long
They all have too many doubts that I can be strong
But I count on ambitions and that boy isn't me
I belong to my emotions. Now I'm all free…