Hopeless love

I’m standing like the post next to you window.
I can’t but understand what’s going on?
What power like the black widow
Is hiding inside your name own?
I just pretended to be weak or strong,
I even fool myself to be ho-hum.
I tried to be attractive like a song.
I guess you thought of me like fun.

I heard you are just hearts keeper.
And you might be accustomed to this kind
But life and love for me don’t differ.
And I love usually like someone blind.
It makes no difference for me like you of course
But anyway I love like “middle ages lancer”.
My love to you is tender like clean source.
It doesn’t matter if there is your answer.

I wanted to forget and find someone another
But realized that all I get likes cancer.
I need to see you like no one another
It doesn’t matter if there is your answer.
The love of man is strange illness.
It could burn out all the world
And I will burn just if I feel I need it.
And you might not love me I told.

I need to see the shining angel.
I couldn’t live without this.
And I don’t want to even touch you.
I think It spoils you like this.
This way I’m. I create the image.
I want to look like good and mostly bad.
For reason only I take part in scrimmage.
Because you don’t love me I feel I’m dept.

I’m man who created himself.
The walls get out from my way.
I’m not a Casanova or a magic elf
And I don’t like this anyway.
I’m told: “Get out from my soul!”
But this the last thing that I do
I’d better kill my own soul
Then with someone’s soul tried to do

I offered you to be my friend,
I brother offered you to be.
You maybe saw me as a friend
But it just wasn’t possible to be.
I tried to ask your kind.
But men pushed out it before.
And it’s impossible to find.
This now. You maybe know much more.

A lot of men proposed you,
I’m among their number now.
But everyone just wanted you
And left. I couldn’t anyhow.
I won’t give up. I won’t go out.
I’ll be your shadow anyway.
And not because my mind is out
For reason that my love this way.