Death Before Death

He took me in his arms, and I melted at his touch.
In all the world I'd never loved anyone as much.
The joy I felt inside his arms, the pleasure of his kiss,
Made my heart melt in madness, I was in Total Bliss.
In many things there's sadness if one looks close and long,
I was blind to everything, I never saw the wrong.
The joy in the beginning equalled the heartache in the end.
My life was only loneliness, it was all because of him.
It came as quick as death, and the heartache came as well.
I never knew the reasons, and he would never tell.
Deep into the night I'd reach out to call his name.
I died a thousand times, no one could ever know the pain.
I'd drown myself with reasons, wondering why he had gone.
I was going crazy, and it went on and on.
Until the end I realized - my life was worth no more.
I had wasted all youthful years standing at the door.
the door, that would never open
Wuth a heart, that would never mend.
I closed my eyes, lifted up the knife
And waited for the heartache to end.