Idle thoughts from somewhere between mind and heart

Licking eagerly blue milk from your hands
Giving you tones of trust and compassion
I forsake myself in me, looking for real you
Breaking all the rules made by scrupulous us
Taking your graceful forgiveness for granted
I love you through the wall of misunderstanding
Seeing you and me like cut apart by that one “us”
Cheating, always cheating on something genuine
I’m scared, I am terrified by the inevitable collapse
Of this half-witted world, thought out by ailing mind
Want you to know that I need you despite everything
Just for a minute, which would last forever, I need you
And your eyes. (Should I get pregnant for you? For me?)
I adore you for your inner strength to have me by your side
I miss you with each cell in my brain, every vein in the heart
You’ll kill me sometime, I know, I cannot stand like this forever
You’ll die one day, when I would need you the most, I foretell…
But, for now, we are the best from the best and forever it will rest…