nobody

The greatest disease of the heart is to be nobody to everybody.
 
 
Don"t look for her, she"s gone away
the one you once called Deenie.
In her place, a machine that moves and breaths.
There are many ways to die without stopped breath,
                she"s nobody
Watch her close, don"t be fooled-
she disappears before your eyes.
Where she"s gone you cannot find.
Gate Dispair has blocked the way
                to nobody
She"s deep asleep while memories beat,
push and shove to enter in.
They cannot force their way to her place called "mine".
She"s guarded well by protective heart
                this nobody
It"s friend Depression"s grip that binds
and slowly bleeds her dry.
Spirit broken like shattered crystal,
while violet stained tears spill silently
                for nobody
Wounded, disobedient child who gave
so completely-saved nothing for herself.
Closed up, dried up,  give up....
die to self and live.
                Be nobody.