Will I laugh at it

I’m just a girl
With no sense of life
Who lives in a dust
Trying to realize
The life’s going on
And nothing comes
The only thing changing
Are dates in calendar
Love is always unrequited
Friendship always ends with fail
Guests are always uninvited
Only spam in my e-mail,
Am I the only one who’s breaking
Am I the only one who’s down,
Only one who spends life faking
Stupid laugh and ugly smile

Will I laugh at it?
Will I laugh at my mistakes,
All these people who offend me
All this life I can’t accept?
Will I laugh at it?
Will I live and be as happy
As I always dreamed?
Will I laugh at it?

I’m trying to sing
But I can’t do it right
So why did this fuckin life
Give me ability to write?
I want to back down
While I’ve just begun
My heart is drowning
And I’m all alone
No one ever  used to support me
No one ever used to help me
No one ever understood me
I can’t understand myself, though
Even in my dreams I’m crying
Turning into bag of nerves
Just don’t dream about dying
I wish I’d never been born.

Will I laugh at it?
Will I laugh at my mistakes,
All these people who offend me
All this life I can’t accept?
Will I laugh at it?
Will I live and be as happy
As I always dreamed?
Will I laugh at it?