Alone again...

I woke up in the morning with the luggage in my head.
Weather turned so gloomy, and pale sun turned bitter red.
My heavy soul fell down with the memories of the past –
She paid me twenty seconds, O! How long they did last.

I’m trying to recover those events that fell to me
Long I didn’t feel such pressure, never could suppose that she
Might come mistress of my heart and knowing not of what she does,
Made my heart crushing into pieces at once.

Romantic music started on the radio,
It did much worse, I realized I was alone.
No rescue here, but there I could find
The quieting, the blessing that nature gives to minds.

It’s not for the first time when I have to learn
That no one can love me – I’m always alone.
I’d better escape to the lands of no fame,
Than always live thinking: “Alone again”.

No matter to where and never return,
Where everything’s fair and lie doesn’t burn.
Away from the city, away from the fakes
To suburbs, to forests, to rocks, cliffs and lakes.

I do understand well, I can’t go and hide away
I belong to the city and for ever there I’ll stay.
But several hours I can gift to myself –
I’ll give up all my doings and will travel by the train.

The platform’s too familiar, thousand times I came to it.
The whistle of the train is heard, I’m turning there my head.
A green suburban train is coming with red lines on its face
It smiles to me with all its grace; it will take me away.

Where do these people ride sitting here beside me?
What are they searching for or gonna loose their fear?
The platform moves and people keep sitting in van,
Continue talking of what life is in the end.

The one has just smiled – showed his hideous teeth,
The second has face that needs kicking by knees.
Two women got quarreled two men joined them then –
They don’t intend that I’m alone again.

They have their problems – the miserable ones,
I try to quite down, the train gives me chance
To plunge into my thoughts and quite with them,
Starting its engines with a beautiful string.

Five positions of the motion can explode bad thoughts away,
Five positions make the forests and the lakes fast fly away.
Loneliness comes not so heavy when the train is moving fast.
The eternal eats the sorrow, drown it into the past.

First position is switched now and it makes the train start on
For the heaviness and loading do expect to stay at home.
Second makes the train go faster – faster reach eternal lands.
Third – and I forget my problems, forth – and I don’t care of them.

Fifth position of the motion meets me with eternal wind.
Only wind blows straight in my face when it’s out of the train.
White light fills my soul ‘cause eyes see bright green walls on bright blue sky,
And the engine sings in the harmony with the fair sounds and lights.